Last October, I met a man online. He is from North Carolina and I'm from New Jersey. We hit it off right away and started chatting almost every night. We also started talking on the phone. Now, just to let you know, I'm married and so is he. He's also seventeen years older than me, but that didn't matter. We became very close in a very short time, so we decided to meet in person. He drove up here to see me, and it was like we've known each other forever. The first time we met, we kissed and fooled around a little, but we never went all the way. He went home and every other month after that he came up to see me again. He's been coming to see me now for a year. He would stay two days at a hotel near me, and I would go see him. While my husband was at work and my kids in school, we would make passionate love all day long. He is the most amazing lover! All he wants to do is please me. My husband and I hardly ever have sex anymore. Even when we were more sexually active, he couldn't care less about pleasing me, just pleasing himself. My lover and I have tried things with each other that we've never done before. It's amazing the pure rush you feel when you're with someone you know you're not suppose to be with. Now, the hard part. My lover and I have fallen in love. We fell in love very early on. We both know we can't be together, but it doesn't stop us from loving each other. He calls me every day and we chat every night. However, his wife has become very suspicious. She's watching him very closely now. I'm not sure if or when we will ever see each other again, but we both know that we will always be in each otherís lives, even if itís just as friends. He's the best lover I have ever had and he's also my best friend. My heart aches thinking that I might not ever see him again.