I don't consider my self to be gay, bi, or even curious. I don't find guys attractive; in fact, the idea of kissing another guy makes me cringe. But, I enjoy gay porn and I fantasize about doing it, sometimes from a guy and sometimes from a girl with a strap-on. I used to do it with my ex occasionally. The taboo is that I think it really turns me on and I often think what it would be like to actually do it with another guy. I don't know if I ever will because the fantasy is enough for me. I also want to mention that I also think about girls too and I am only attracted to them. I just wanted to let other readers know my situation in order to help them understand what I think it all means, as I found this site while looking for answers myself.