Love Fails Long-Distance Test
After 10 years of a long distance relationship with the love of my life, my ability to trust him is shattered. I waited in vain for marriage, and this year he said it will never happen. He lives with a family member while I live thousands of miles away. His family is against me and jealous of my role in his life, knowing if he marries me he won't be there anymore. He tells me it's a better life there than with me, that I am too jealous and possessive.
How do I end this? I can't take it anymore and though I love him enough to wed him, I've become verbally abusive to him. I don't like who I've become around him anymore. He flirts with younger women without caring about how that impacts me. He has betrayed my trust on several occasions and I did it back to him, hoping this might manipulate him into not letting me go. I am unwilling to go forward without a vow, and this situation is not workable and tragic. It's a New Year and I want to be strong but don't know how to go. I don't think he will ever change and I feel stupid to the point of self-loathing if I stay. I love him very very much but can't stand another day apart, and I've been unable to sleep.
- Maggie, 50
You ask how to end this long, unsatisfying relationship. What you really mean is how can you end it without causing yourself pain. But you can't expect this to be painless. The best action you can take is to tell him, once and for all, that it's over, and then stop ALL communication with him. Of course that will be very painful for you, but the pain will diminish over time. Otherwise the pain will go on and on for many more years. And you will find yourself betrayed again and again.
He isn't going to change. He has told you that in so many words. He's content where he is, doing what he's doing. Seeing you once in a while has been pleasant for him, but not so pleasant that he wants to change his life, live with you, take vows with you. In fact, you're the one who is changing, and for the worse. You're not stupid, you're simply not facing the truth. I highly recommend some counseling for you to help you during the transition and perhaps to discuss your sleeping difficulties with you.
NOTE: The information contained herein is provided for information purposes, and not intended as a substitute for advice or treatment that may or should be prescribed by your physician or recommended by your therapist.