Every Move He Makes

I've been with this man now for two years. We moved in with each other shortly after we started dating. We really didn't know each other, but I had financial problems and he came to the rescue. The girl I was living with moved out. I had no way to pay the rent. So, he gave me what money he had, and it was enough to pay the rent for another month. The only way I felt better about me costing him his home was to have him stay with me. Right from the start, he told me he loved me. I really didn't know him, so I couldn't say "I love you" back to him. He said it every chance he could. We used to work at the same place together. That is where I met him. When I first saw him at work, I couldn't take my eyes off of him. When we would end up in the storage room at the same time, he would always hug me. I liked that. He still hugs me and says, "I love you," but it doesn't feel the same. I found out he is looking for a discreet relationship with girls he talks to on the net. He doesn't know I know about all the women he has talked with and written letters to. It makes me so angry! From the beginning, he's wanted me really bad. He did everything he could to get me. Now that he has me, I don't know what I did wrong to make him start looking elsewhere. At first the sex was great. We did it all the time. That lasted for about nine months. Then I found out that he was looking, and I was hurt. He would ask me what was wrong, but I don't like to talk so I kept it to myself. It has been over a year since I found out. He still doesn't know that I know every move he makes. I wonder what he would do if he knew that I knew? What would you do if you were me?

— Kaitlyn, 23

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