Is It My Fault?

My best friend, Julie, and I have been friends since I was in high school. She started to see this guy, and we all became friends. Well, about three months into their relationship, he cheated on her with her other friend. She forgave him, but he dropped her like a bad habit. Half a year later, we were all still pretty good friends. We went to parties, hung out, etc. Well, she's a virgin, and they have been together for about two and a half years now, and she doesn't ever want to loose her virginity. I just think she's afraid of sex. He does a lot for her, I mean a lot, and he gets nothing but maybe a kiss on the cheek. Well, we all used to stay at his house, you know, because his parents were easy. We could come home drunk and just pass out. Well, one night, I got really drunk. I think I was just kidding, but I was like, "We should have sex sometime," and that was all that was said. A week later at another party, we were on our way to take Julie home when, all of sudden, he was all over me. I mean, as soon as we dropped her off he was a different person. I felt like a total ass. I think I made him feel awkward or something because it's summer and we haven't all really hung out since New Years except for when I'd see them at parties. I want to tell her because she doesn't deserve this even though she is a prude. You don't treat your friends like that. Well, at least that's what I thought. I don't really want to do it again, but this has happened more times than I can count on my hand.

— Tori, 22

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