Until I Cheat Again

I was dating this one guy for almost nine months when I started chatting with another man online. I wasn't sure if I wanted to keep dating the first guy, but I was sure that I wanted to date the new guy from online. So, I made an excuse to skip seeing my boyfriend and went out with the internet guy. Once I met the internet guy, there was a connection for us. He was older, looked great with a little gray in his hair, was in awesome physical shape, and, best of all, he was enthralled with me from hello. So, I am out on Friday night with the internet guy when my boyfriend, who lives two hours away, walks in with his mother who lives in my town. We met when he was at his mom's house. I saw them as they walked in the door and tried to hide my face, but I think they saw my Jeep and knew I was there. They waited for their table, and I was making excuses to the internet guy on why we should leave. I ended up telling him I wanted to have sex to get him to skip dinner. As soon as my boyfriend and his mom were seated, I made a beeline to the door and my Jeep. I ended up doing the internet guy in his car around the corner before I went home. When I got home, there was a message on the machine from my boyfriend who had seen me in the restaurant but did not want to make a scene in front of his mother. A week or so later, I was at the grocery store and saw his mom. I said hello to her, and she called me a whore loud enough that ten or so people looked over. She said she saw me at the restaurant and asked why I was dating a man old enough to be my father. It was a nasty scene, but I am still with the internet guy until I decide to cheat again.

— Roxanne, 32

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